That moment when you screamed in genuine terror and you only heard the terror, that is how my life is lived.
I have tried for ages to suppress my fears, but every night they crawl all over me and build their silken threads in my hair. I have never heard my own scream. But short-coated, serious faces tell me that my screams reverberate against the glass walls of my prison in hourly bursts.
I remember thinking prisons were concrete and heavy, inescapable yet safe, protecting you from the outside world. When I shot a man through the heart and I was dragged away with flashing lights, I did not fight. They would cast me behind thick walls where I would be sheltered forever from my nightmares.
I know now that fear can enter inside even the strongest prison. That nightmares are not kept out by prison walls. Nightmares are the walls.
photo by anita jean.
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